I understand what you are saying. I go through things like that,and they are not easy to explain. Most people don't have a clue what we go through. I've survived this long,and research is getting better. I believe you can make it. The scientists are advancing in medical help for us.

Also reading the Bible has given me great strength to continue. I think that only God knows whats going on in these type of illnesses. I read verses that help me to not sink. The Psalms,and Isaiah chapters 40 through 66 have got some strength giving,and soothing verses.

Don't give up. You have strength to continue. BF