Morning all. I was up all night sick to my stomach over all this. It's a constant dreaded feeling. Everyone is saying we did our best but the guilt says different. On one hand I know medically she may get worse. But on the other, emotionally she'll be happier. Ugh, why does this have to be so hard?

But I am going to try and stay strong and try to understand that even if she gets sick, she would be where she is happiest. We'll see, I am putting into God's hands if he'll let me.

Hope everyone is having a good day.