Thanks everyone so much for the responses with reassurance, information, and support they are all very helpful and encouraging . After rereading my post with a fresh head I see how long it actually is [sorry about that :O] and I realize that I have a few issues wording things/ reading people/ and in General bahaha!...

Alright.. so this past Thursday, I had a meeting with my principal about my second semester and just what was going to happen with that. apparently I'm going to attempt to attend my second semester but it will be modified as such-- I will only take either 2or 3 classes or I will take the simplest classes available like career work *Ughh* not really my cup of tea. He gave me the weekend to think it over and I'm thinking that I want to take a schedule that goes Math B30 in a Sp.Ed classroom for the entire morning so I could also catch up on A30 and my physics than my other classes once those are done.. than in the afternoon I'd do Chemistry 20 and History 20. I love History (atleast what I remember of it from last year and apparently I was "stellar" at it so hopefully that could be an advantage) and I prefer Science and Math classes to english and arts. He had thought I should do spare, law 20, Visual Arts, Career, Career for credits which I didn't like the idea of at all.. I want to actually learn something from my classes... not to offend anyone, that's just my current school situation I'll have to talk to him again tomorrow and see how this works out. also my English test worked out to an 88! I think my english teacher may have seen me crying during my exam and pitied me haha. But he has recommended to the principal to get a specialist to come and give me a cognitive test in a few weeks (she's the only one for 49 schools so it'll take a while for her to get here) But it'll be the first test I'll actually be getting for my head so I'm pretty happy for it.

Does anyone think this could be a problem or anything? We have a week or 2 to change our schedule but I think for me they can make an exception anyway haha.

I had gone to a massage therapist a few times and it'd be amazing during and for a few hours after but then, about 3-5 hours after the session my back and neck would sieze up or I'd throw up and have horrible headaches/vertigo. I'd try Icing it, Yoga, running, stretches, sleeping, sitting/relaxing, and chugging *litres* of water but we finally just gave up on it and are now switching to accupuncture/ spine adjustments to see if that's any different. the first time I felt dizzy/lightheaded and had a massive headache but I was told that was normal for everyone so we'll see how that goes. Do you have any other suggestions for the massage therapy or should I just leave that one be?

How should I really go about "shopping around" should I just mention it to my family doctor that I'm not satisfied with my neurologist? and how would I go about getting a Neuro-psych? because nobody really wants to *do* anything about my *conditon*...

So apparently I have no idea what people actually think is wrong with me. and that just bugs me. Just thought I'd let you know that since there's nothing I can really do about that. My own mother doesn't even really know what's wrong with me. I'm freaking out on her, having a horrible temper tantrum, and she just freaks out on me- blaming the medication and doctors for everything and just calling me a grouch (in a not so nice term) and when I try to explain to her that I have a, y'know, *HEAD INJURY* a whole knew can of worms just rips open. She starts insinuating that I'm either on the verge of faking, It can't possibly be as bad as I make it out to be, I'm just such a horrible person ( like I can help it I'm SO SO SORRY MOM), and just freaking out on me which causes me to freak out on her which just made a horrible mess and I seriously felt like hurting her D:!! IT WAS THE WORST! I screamed at her and asked her if she even knew anything about what was wrong with me. she said she "had'nt had the time to do research" It's been months. I figured if she really cared, if she really truly cared she would actually *try* to find out what was wrong with me. I know what my mom does with her time and I know that she's had time to atleast look up how this is affecting me. she hasn't even done that and I've just been so angry with her this entire ordeal and I'm pretty sure this is the root cause of it. finally she's decided to order some books off of amazon about coping with PCS but seriously I just want her to read online about it. and it'll still take atleast a week for the books to come. oh well atleast it's a step.

and that's just my mom. I can't even imagine what people who don't live in my own house think. I'm getting really tired of telling people "well I fell and hit my head on a bench in September." "well I rolled my truck 3 weeks ago and ripped my pants and you don't see me drooling in the back of class" "well... you can just shut up" Oh man. It's just so hard explaining what's wrong with you to someone, who only truly half cares, when no one has actually explained what's wrong with you to yourself...


I'm thinking that I'm taking the whole "This is a safe place to vent" a little to seriously ha ha :P Oh well.. now I'm all flustered and can't remember questions or anything again... Oh well Thanks again guys for all the help It is much appreciated