I have lost both parents and last July I loss my husband of 47 yrs. It is always hard to lose a love one. I guess my husband was the hardest. I don't have hardly any family left. The hardest thing I have ever done was to tell him I would be ok, that it was alright to go. He died in my arms.
The most comfort I got, was to see so many come to visitation and a very large funeral. I knew then that he was loved by so many. Keep your good thoughts. It's ok to feel sadness. Tears are a language God understands. We do welcome you here and feel free to express your sadness. My deepest sympathy goes out to you.
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Billie