ummmmm.............. and just when do these miracles occur?
When you told me year two would be more difficult, I must admit... as much as I admired you
and looked to you for guidance, I didn't fully believe you. Because, how could ANYTHING be
worse than all those firsts without my Dad!
But, you were right.

It is so final .... the blissful numbness wears off to leave just the stark
awful truth. And somehow, I am suppose to find a way to carry on alone..... *sigh