We all get stressed.and its hard to hold onto ones integrity and stay focused and stay composed,,It will either be a stumbling block and destroy us ,,or be a building block and strengthen us,,,I get so mentally weak at times,,I dont want to verbally mistreat my wife due to my pain and distress from watching this disease spread with fear and frustration of being in a wheelchair,,I go to the Lord Jesus for my strength,,My dr's that ive seen dont show much empathy because they do not feel my pain and grief,and its not like a broken arm that will heal in 6 wks and then life goes on,,,to me, this is a side by side corralation of cancer when you in stage 2 [causalgia],,,rapid spread , praying for healing from this monster,,,,God bless you all,,I dont want the likes of this disease to consume me,nor to control me,nor to destroy my inner being and charactor and zeal to help others,,I desire death,,before it comes to that point