I am so sorry. We all feel your pain. I pray the Lord comforts you during this time. Drink a cup of warm (decaf) tea, and listen to some music soothing to you. I found this website... lastfm.com if you put in 'sleep music' it comes up a sleep channel and it has earth sounds.. it is very very calming. I was very suprised. And you can type in any other artists you like. Music has always been calming to my ears, but make sure your body responds in a calming way, not all 'calming' sounds or cds are calming for everyone!!!