ok well my hubby is trying so hard to help and be supportive,, but he just dont understand how much pain i am in.. both physically and emotionally.. He is not willing to let me just stay in bed and give up.. He makes me move and do things really.. Its just that im alone in my feeling that they dont understand how much it hurts.. I keep saying its worse than child birth and they say thats impossible.. and to me it really is the best way to describe it.. I feel like i am losing my mind. I forget every thing these days.. my vision keeps going fuzzy and they think they are migranes and im not so sure.. and i feel like its spreading down my right elbow now.. and my doc says he can no longer help me cuz the blocks didnt work longer that 2 days for me.. its pitiful.. He canceled therapy at my request cuz it was so hard for me to do.. I have just about totally lost my left arm.. I try to use it as much as possible.. but i cant lift with it or make a fist with it.. have less than 1lb weight limit. its horrible.. I really need a life...lol