i do try to be patient with them..They are more patient with me though than i am.. I never had patience to begin with..lol.. i sometime think its harder on my kids than it is me.. They are more frustrated, or atleast they havent figured out how to hide it yet as they are only 12 and 15 and changing themselves..Everyone says once the settlement is finished and i get the money i will feel better but i really doubt that.. It is just one problem out of the way.. The pain and the grief is still going to be there. the hardest part is we are living with my parents, and im working part time and they are messin with me trying to fire me.. which im sure will happen soon..I asked my hubby to stay off work til this is resolved with the suit, so he can be there for all my appts, since i forget everything anyway. the worst part for me is I feel like i am losing my mind..I was going to go back to school, but now not sure if i can remember what i learn.. Or if the stress of school is going to push me over the edge right now..Im really unsure of my self lately.. Its horrible..But I like to think with the help of all you wonderful survivors i can do anything.