Siccy the fact of the matter is that regardless of what we do there will always be a bit of time throught the day, hour, minute or second that we all will experience some sort of pain and that this pain is a reality we must live with. Unfortunately it is not us that contols the pain, but the pain that contols us! Guess what I am trying to say is moderation and trying to find out what we can and can not do is a key factor in how we may be able to function. Sort of like the accelerator pedal on a car, the faster we go, the faster we hurt... today I hav been typing more than normal and know that I will be paying for it later on though to me answering some of the mail I am getting is much more important than thinking of myself... and that you say you are not important to others is just a bunch of rubish, I beleive the worst we can do unto others is just to up an quit... love of a child is unconditional and they so depend on the time spent on them wether it be reading a book or out and about for a walk... so should you not make one of the conditions for your child be love in whatever it is you do ?!?
My best to you and your little one MARK-n-GOOBER