Hi I am so sorry for what you are facing. I can really relate right now. I am trying to just get through each day. I know it is hard to not focus on the future but it is somethng I am trying to do. With this condition there is so much unknown and so things can get better. I understand the family issue as well. I am here anytime if you want an email buddy. I know it is not the same as real time but it can still help. I hope you get to enjoy your trip and who knows maybe you will have some fun times that will lift your spirits. Where are you heading?