Hey, soccer14
I liked both YouTube videos. I certainly liked the shark in the wave. How close we come sometimes. Let's you know God loves you.
Being young, I don't know if you've heard this before.
"When one door closes, another door opens." You may want to see what the other door has to offer.
Life is about change. NOTHING stays the same, at least for me. No brakes, no net. Sometimes it is scary. It is a good idea to have a Plan B and C, because there will be many snares, upsets and hurdles you must cross and overcome. Our decisions will mold our future and reflect our past.
R U having fun yet? You have today to live, to love, to laugh, to make the best of, and then the day will be over and that is your past.
I've also learned through experience, that when you're not up to it, for whatever reason, you won't be able to pull it off anyway.
It's good you're beginning to open up and be honest with yourself. you need to work on that.