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Originally Posted by Wilbyfree
Kathy and Hannah,
I laid down today for my hour of meditation and mindfulness. For the first time in months I cried. I begged God for a miracle! You see, I ripped my right foot off of my leg nine years ago. I also crushed the other foot. So today as I sit here, I grabbed the phone to call my ortho surgeon. But, instead I came here for a minute to ponder some things. I wanted to ask him to take off my foot. I just can't take the bad days any longer. I am dealing with alot of post traumatic pain as well as the causalgia, so my distorted thinking today, was to take it off. It has already spread, but if I could just eliminate some of the posttraumatic pain, maybe I could deal with it for a while longer.
God Bless you both, I will take today as a sign and a miracle that you have both found in your hearts to share. I will take the time, to think this through on a more clear day. Thank you God for using these precious people to spread your message. Today, I will just pray, for all of you for pain relief, a miracle, a cure and for friendship.
God Bless, Jeanie
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Should I understand your post correctly.. our blips deverted you from making a very crutial but timely phone call... If that understanding is correct, then I have just done a weeks worth of work...that is helping a dear friend in need..You, my dear friend are suffering.. your pain is indescribeale to others and heartache that is unmeasureable... I, too have begged my Dr. to take my rt. leg away..later realizing ..that would not be the end of my pain therefore not the end of my problems either....We all have those moments when we would resort to taking such measures that would blow the minds of healthier indivduals...thank goodness you gave yourself the opportunity to step back and rest and read...today.. humm... ?? Now there was gift..! .. We must all become accustomed to our newselves and what we are comprised of.. sadly, it is not easy for us to move about with such large baggage now.. each day in our RSD state but this is us now..and together we will figure this out... You are stronger than you believe and you are equipted to handle this more than you think... RSD is not given to the weak...Thought for the day is when your feeling sad... come visit your friends on this forum!!!
Much love, Jeanie..
Kathy
Sorry for your tears... "don't cry shop girl...don't cry..."