and I dont think this is quite MS related.

It's mom-related.

I just spent about two hours mommy-sitting while my dad went to work out for a little bit. I'm feeling so much anxiety right now because of it. My mom is pretty helpless right now and in pain and I dont know if I can handle this.

I cant help her if she falls down again, I cant do much to help her even if she's sitting around. I can adjust her pillows, get her a drink, but I cant help her into the bathroom. (my dad has been doing that)

I'm afraid to help her up because I'm scared she's going to trip or fall.

My hand has been numb since last fall, and even tho I can still knit and crochet, I've noticed that it's not very strong anymore. I cant exactly use that hand to help her up and be sure that my hand isnt going to be able to help hold her up and stuff.

I hate anxiety.

I wonder if part of the anxiety is the anxiety that the MS will do something to me because I'm stressing out?

I'm going to go take a nap.