Dear KS, you are going to be fine. Maybe a bit nervous but you are already doing that. Refresh me if you will, is this appointment for Ketamine? When are you going? I hate meeting docs for the first time, my history is rediculous and I am always a ball of nerves. I think what you are feeling is totally normal. Did you ever try the morphine?

I dunno, this disease is crazy, so many little things that are so aggravating, but you are absolutely right, this disease is not a disease for the weak. And when we do get weak, it is through that weakness we gain our strength. I will keep you in my prayers as always. You might be an office visit away from a cure or some relief, that is worth a little anxiety to say the least. We are worth fighting for. We do deserve some comfort, compassion and a level of dignity in our life. The disease is bad, the pain is bad, but we are not. I do alot of meditation for pain and anxiety it has really helped me out alot. But the other day, I was so twisted up with fear, that none of my coping skills were working. But, I made it through, thanks to all of you wonderful people. God Bless You. Keep moving forward, you are almost there.

Jeanie