I'm concerned about tonight. I still have a lump in my throat. I'm not thinking right.

I'll feel alright,then I'll feel like something real bad is going to happen. I'll feel depressed,and then I'll feel alright,and then bad again. I'm having mood swings that are hard to cope with.

Last night I became cold,then colder,and warm. I wasn't thinking right,scared,and then I thought that I could die. I felt a little suicidal. I am so tired of this,and when it gets worse like this,it's almost unbearable.

It helps me to talk on this forum. It's a life line. BF