Oh dear putterfit... we know its hard.... and I hope you can find solace in knowing you are not alone... and that many of us here understand your pain... no one can EVER feel what you are feeling but we can relate...

I can only imagine the horrific sorrow of losing a son ... I can only imagine the pain he was in... and how difficult it is for anyone to understand.

I sincerely hope you have the resources to reach out and get some immediate help - read this thread... as it has helped me through this week and I have reached out for the help I so desperately need: http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread114801.html

and then read the thread written by Ptr... who is now lost to us through illness but forever remains in our hearts because of his wise and understanding strenth: http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread5351.html

My heart aches for your loss. Please know you are not alone!

Addy