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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Greensboro, NC
Posts: 114
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Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Greensboro, NC
Posts: 114
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I wish that I could believe
I do wish that I could believe that love is the answer. I no longer know what love is and I am not sure that I ever did. The end of my first marriage was hard enough and that was over 30 years ago and I understand that my second wife of 25 years is so toxic to me that I can not allow her to be any part of my life for she will just use me to get what she wants and then kick me away once again. Over the past 2+ years she has called me several times when she was in need knowing that I would come and once the crisis was over I was pushed out the door and off the cliff.
It would be nice to find a person that could accept me and all of my medical issues but I do not believe that a person such as that exists.
Here is another question. How does one learn to put themselves first and do what is best for them when you have spent your entire live taking care of and helping others before ever thinking about yourself?
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Originally Posted by mistiis
(((Putterfit))) sometimes all I can offer is a  I will not say I understand what you are going through. Struggle, pain, I understand. Suicidal thoughts and feelings, and attempts, I "get"....I feel for you and you are not alone in this...my prayers are with you.... |
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Cancer (MS) can take away all my physical abilities. It cannot touch my mind, it cannot touch my heart and it cannot touch my soul. And those three things are going to carry on forever. Jimmy V
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