I have been assigned a date to attend a deposition..The insurance carrier's attorney, a court stenographer and my attorney..will my doctors be able to attend? Of course not....

I will feel like a deer trapped in a net of questions and scrutiny, and even according to some, intimidation.....I have to take an oath as though it is suspected that I will lie.
I will be interrogated about me, my life, very personal questions...
While I have nothing to hide, i am affronted by this process..and from what I understand, the questions will be tricky to try and 'catch' me in some mistruth.
I am concerned that I will blow up in indignation.

Will I have an opportunity to question their policies on authorization, why the utilization review board is in another state staffed by doctors not licensed in California? I already know that answer...to protect them from liability...)

In my humble opinion, this is being done for one reason only, to view me as a price tag. It is eumphemistically called a "discovery process", to find out about who I am......The true purpose, however, is to find out how much will I cost the insurance company, and what is the least amount of money they can pay for my treatment, and their future responsibility
....
While I have a budget I must live within, I would not compromise the health treatment of my loved ones...but I am not the W.C. insurance company's loved one......

I am certain they will ask why I don't want a spinal cord stimulator...their probable suggestion for a fast fix...
My response will be (among other reasons) that it can cause spread...and I will have nothing from a medical journal to substantiate my rationale...

All along, I've had to write letters and beg for authorizations ...
..and now I'll sit under their spotlight by law...I am far from being naive, but
something is wrong with the priorities of healing...

I apologize for my rant..to you, my friends..on a Sunday night...but I am seething..

Hope4thebest