It sounds like you have had some real fun,and maybe got a little carried away,and forgot about the person who you where talking to online. You are human,and are going to make mistakes.

Remember the good times that you have had. Don't be to hard on yourself. I apologize alot myself,because I feel these self condemnation guilts all of the time. I have a problem with false guilt. It sort of pops the bubble after you have had some fun.

The more fun that you have had,the more false guilt grips you later. It is a painful thing. BF