Hello dear all !!!

I wanted to post earlier, but, I wanted to write properly and I had too many things in my head... also, I have lots of work to do at the lab because, I abandoned my cells for one week... Oh, guess what, got the flu again, plus my fibro has been BAD... and, Ive been having stress crisis...

Anyway, this trip made me think a lot... Ive been reflexing a lot... and, wanted to share the good things with you, but also, I need to vent some bad things...
I now know why Im always sick... Im just too aprehensive... (does that word exists in english ?? )

So... This was my 3rd time in london, but it felt like the first one for several reasons... it was the first time since I have my eyes surgery and my visual problems... the first one since Ive got fibromyalgia... first one since I need to take my prozac, my vitamins and my levothiroxine with me... First time you traveled with me too !!!

I still question myself how I managed to do it... I didnt have the money... My aunt and boss lent me... I was scared to death of my sight problems... I didnt experince any while there... All my body hurt... but, I survived while there !!!
So... I feel truly blessed... I could feel God in my life clearly again... protecting me again... travelling with me... I have been travelling completely alone since I was 16... nobody waits for me at airports... nobody helps me with my luggage... etc, etc,, etc... my parents dont understand much about planes, hotels, subways, etc because they have never been out of the country.... I always used to think and feel, that God and my 4 granpas in heaven were travelling with me, protecting me, etc... BUT, lately, let's say the last 2 years, you know my life changed dramatically and I felt even God had abandoned me... So, this trip helped me to understand He is always there... and, he knows when we need the things and what things...

So, while I was there, I meet this girls... one from Venezuela but that is living there since last october, one from Russia but studying there and one from Germany studying there too... So, they were impressed I had travelled all the way from Mexico "just for that"...
So, those 3 girls and me, decided to arrive 12 hours before the concert to get a good spot... I was worried my poor sick body was not going to support that, but it did... (well, maybe not was these days my fibro had been terrible)...
2 hours after arriving, we decided to go to the back door to see if we could see the band members arriving... we talked to the girls in front of us in the line and ask if they would save our spot... they said yes. So, long story short, we spent most of the day waiting for the band... before the band arrived, one crew member asked me where I was from and was impressed to find out I went there just for the concert... I had a painting (oh, the one I pasted here) and he said it was very good... so, he went into the place, and came back with a guitar pick and a setlist sheet for me I was in cloud number 9... Im not used to people being that nice to me... you know, that was like a prize to my effort... The girls were MAD, I could see it in their eyes... they started to shout to the man that they wanted things too, etc... but he said they didnt deserve it...
Later, at 7pm, we needed to go back to the line to get in, and, they ran away from me (I couldnt run because my feet were killing me thanks to my fibro)... when I arrived some steps after they, they didnt allow me to get in the line !!! I think they were so mad at me... I needed to go all the way back in the line... and, at the end, my spot at the concert wasnt the best... (they got 2nd row in the middle, right in front the singer)...
That action, made me feel sad, mad, etc, but also, made me reflect A LOT... envy ruin people... and, also, I realised there is bad people in this world whether we want to accepted or not... I was thinkng, how can sweet, helpful, kind, honest, friendly people like everybody here, share this planet with envy, bad, malicious people like those girls ??? Impressive.

I started to thought, that, I was travelling alone, and that that place in the line would have been mine if I hadnt met them as I cant be in 2 places at the same time so... well... but you can understand how I felt.

The last thing I heard of them, was, that they told MY STORY to a magazine but changing my name with theirs and changing Mexico with their countries... they live there, but now are pretending to have gone just for the gig... crossing the planet just for that blah, blah, blah as I did... to catch the attention of the fans, the band and the magazine readers... I feel mad, sad and idiot because, dont know... I feel like, I never tell my things to the correct people... dont know... weird feeling.... do you think you understand what Im talking about ?? Am I just sounding crazy ??

So... Wanted to tell you this because, you are my real friends... the once who understand me the best so...

I will post some pics tomorrow...

Thank you for reading... I need to say that, the happiness seems to be going from my life again... I have been feeling very stressed and, starting to feel blue...

Love ya all !!!