I am only on topamax. wc wont pay for anything and i cant really afford my meds.. and i dont have anything that helps right now.. so i just take the topamax.. was on lyrica july of last year.. it helps and will be back on it again hopefully soon when the case is over.. but i also forget words i am trying to say.. so its really called brain rot huh.. well i was trying to figure out what to call it.. well its better than just being tarded i guess.lol.. it makes me feel stupid.. cant wait til deposition training, thats going to be so much fun..lmao. going to forget everything right after i do it.. but it might be kind of fun..hehe.. atleast i am not alone and can laugh about it now..but the forgetting where i am or seeing things differently scares me.. what if i forget to stop at a stop light or stop sign with my kids in the car or something? and my kids get hurt? there has to be something they can do for us right? just things like that worry me.. me im expendable.. im 35. that sounds depressing i know. but im more worried bout my children then i am myself..i dont want them to suffer cuz i got hurt anymore than they have to.. they do now cuz i got hurt and lost my job and lost my house and in debt up to my eyeballs and my hubby lost his job all within 8 months time. but still,,