Haven't posted here in a few weeks. Have had exams and surgery. Been somewhat busy. Sorry.
I was hoping to get some insight from some of you guys about how to approach a Drs appt on Monday. I probably need to give a little background.

I'm in school studying American sign language and hoping to eventually go back to work as a social worker with the hearing impaired. Things have been rough the last few weeks with school because of the surgery and doctor appointments but also my inability to not get distracted. I had a one on one with my professor. That was his main complaint with me about my signing skills was that I would start a dialog and get distracted by background activity and need to restart a sentence or thought.
I expressed my concerns to my physiatrist (PMR DR) Thursday and asked what I could do as far as exercises in order to remedy this. He said that he was going to have me see another PMR in his practice and maybe she could come up with some meds or treatments that could help.
I'm afraid that my reaction to him saying that meds may be the answer was not the most positive. I'm terrified that medications will only slow me more and make it impossible for me to complete school-- if it is even possible in the first place. He proceeded to get frustrated with me and tell me that I needed to be open and not just shoot things down up front. He also wrote a referral for me to go through speech therapy along with my physical therapy.

I see this new PMR doctor on Monday and to be honest I don't know how to approach it at all. I always thought that being a person who didn't want to take drugs was a good thing. Now I don't know what to think. I also thought that having a drive to not give up and try to do things that may be hard or possibly out of reach was positive. Now I don't know what to think, how to act, or what to do. I don't even know if I could make myself think another way if I tried.

Are there medications out there to reign in the mind that doesn't dull it? I'm really curious from those who have gone before me.

I'm sorry this is so long. I've just been a basket case since my professor pointed out that he had noticed my weakness. I have a proficiency interview in May that decides if I continue to the interpreter program or not. This professor is one of the 4 faculty members who decides that. His comments were a big blow to me.

I have fretted over my professor's comments, the doctor's frustrations with me, my fears of losing the only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning, and confusion over whether my drive is keeping me alive or if I should just give up and give in and trust that these docs with figure it all out.

HELP