Oh Sally I wish so much to know what the future holds, but none of us know for sure. I have 95 year old friends that get out and walk everyday! and I have 33 year old friends that dropped from a stroke, and are working hard and are still not fully recovered a year later. One friend has massive amounts of cancer in her family history. she beat it twice. Her husband doesnt have so much as freckles in his family history, and he dropped dead of bad lukemia at age 50! Now she is finding it very hard to move forward, as their whole marriage was designed around HER going first! Surprise!

To quote Forrest Gump's momma. Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you are going to get.

I am sure since the death of your beloved DH you have learned many things. You have learned how strong you are. Remembered how funny you are. Shown yourself that you CAN get things done by hiring pretty men to come do it! Please dont let a moment of lonelyness keep you in a corner. come on out when you are done, and lets get busy laughing, singing, and living.

Are there things you can do outside of the house? Read to kids at the library? read letters to seniors at the elderly housing? Ladle out food at the homeless shelter? Sort clothes at the Salvation Army? Help a church with projects for Haiti, or Chile? You still have so much left to give Sal Pal. You have been a great cheerleader, advisor, and mentor for so many, right here, in our small circle. Be proud of yourself. I think you give far more back to this life, than you give yourself credit for.

Even when we disagree, you are loved sal pal.