I wonder why I even come out of my room every day, my roommates purposely annoy my endlessly, and I certainly don't want to be around them or their disgusting behavior. God I can't wait for them to move away so I can go back to living alone and in utter poverty, (I'm not even being sarcastic).

I wonder that I'm doomed to spend my life completely alone. If I keep my mouth shut I will never know peace, if I ask nicely I am ignored, if I don't bother to be nice I am hated and ignored.

I wonder why people have to be so self-centered and self-important.

I wonder that the lonliness is making my heart hurt physically every few heartbeats, then a horrible weakness and emptiness spreads into my left arm and my stomach.

I wonder that this is how I live, all day every day.

I wonder how I find the strength to leave my bed every morning.