[QUOTE=David Mi other than that I am tarp as a shack,[/QUOTE]

Cute.... you have a sense of humor and that's a good sign in my book.
Just wanted to let you know there is a forum here specific to PTSD......just click on the big NeuroTalk Logo and scroll clear down....it's almost at the bottom
It would be good to start a new discussion there!
Best Wishes.....You've come to a great place!