Sometimes it feels good to be alone. With the TV off, with the music off. With all distractions turned off. I was always afraid of silence. Now I embrace it. I want to be alone.

Alone to feel alone. Alone to feel the personal hurt that I feel and don't want to project to my loved-ones. Alone to be able to conquer this myself. Alone to will myself to "get over this" and "suffer through it". Alone to will myself past this beast and be there for my kids and their highschool achievements. Alone to just feel what I feel. To just hurt sometimes. To just feel joyous moments. To just feel...

I want that freedom...

To Just Feel.