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Originally Posted by kim ames
Sometimes it feels good to be alone. With the TV off, with the music off. With all distractions turned off. I was always afraid of silence. Now I embrace it. I want to be alone.
Alone to feel alone. Alone to feel the personal hurt that I feel and don't want to project to my loved-ones. Alone to be able to conquer this myself. Alone to will myself to "get over this" and "suffer through it". Alone to will myself past this beast and be there for my kids and their highschool achievements. Alone to just feel what I feel. To just hurt sometimes. To just feel joyous moments. To just feel...
I want that freedom...
To Just Feel.
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Hi Kim, and you deserve that freedom. With this disease, as mothers and wives, etc, we do everything in our power to hide our pain from our loved ones. During the alone time is when we can really hear our inner voice and try to reason with this beast. It is during this time that we can feel what we feel without any judgment or timelines. We can cry, pray, do whatever we need to do to make peace within our body, mind and soul. I believe with every breath I take that I will make peace with this. Fighting it has served me no good, taking care of oneself should be top priority. I will pray for your freedom. For me I would love to just go fishing, I can actually picture me sitting along side the river all day, of course a warm day just fishing.
God Bless, may you have all the freedom and quiet time that you need.
Jeanie