Bobber,
I'm with ya! Hey, sometimes, popping the cork, is our relief valve, to keep us from truly imploding! You've earned enough love, to go through this, I know you well enough to get that. You should know that as well!

You're a sensitive man, Bobber. Always ready to help others. I'll explain the way a psych did once with me.
Consider your emotions (stress) like a barometer.
The moment you wake from a stress free sleep, your eyes open, and you begin to become aware of the "stressors" in your life.
Your "Barometer" starts to rise.
By the time mid morning hits, you've got the full realization of your pain and your problems, and your Barometer is idling at around 75%. Give or take.

Then, comes the day, and new problems and more pain. You have some greif thrown on by a stranger. Barometer up to 95/90%, which brings your pain up, Barometer now, 95%.
Then, your friend calls, and since none of us operate well with a "Stress Barometer" @ 95%, yours now breaks through 100% due to a small disagreement, and you bite someone's head off! Including your own!
We can't, We not equipped to handle this kind of STRESS!
You, Me, Any of our Beloved family, or friends here, can and will POP!

Anyone that knows you Bobber, knows well, that you're a kind man. And, that it out of character for you to POP.
So, you're forgiven.

But, have you forgiven yourself?
Can you bring that "Stress Barometer" down to a workable level, on a daily basis?
Recognize your stressors, and work to eliminate or diminish them.

You haven't changed, my friend. You just reached a limit! No sin, no harm done.
Your apologies are gladly accepted.
That you wrote here, shows us all what a kind heart you have.

Take it as a warning from God, that you are carrying a bit too much on your shoulders.
Ask him for some help. He'll provide!
You know this.
This is your faith!

My prayers are with and for you!

Yer Pal,
Pete
asb