My wonderful ex called my work Wednesday. Ended up taking a valium.

He was fighting with Wes (he texted Wes and told him that unless Wes called him back right now Wes would never see his father again. Asshat.)

What part of NO CONTACT does he not understand? Sheesh.

By the time I got home Wes was in the fetal position on the floor in total wig out mode. Thank heavens for clonopin.

Can I kill him now? I wonder if it would be considered justifiable.

He makes it so hard for me to remain positive and help the boys through his tantrums and give them the strength to love him. I tell them all the time it is ok to love someone you hate. They get that but sometimes they want to strangle him. sigh.

I think I hate him right now.

I am going to Vegas with my husband for the weekend. We need the break and his boss is footing the bill.

I love you all and I will talk to you soon.

NOBODY ELSE, have any more heart break and life changing pain this weekend with out me to give you hugs. Tell the fates that they are just gonna have to wait. K?