Not doing so well. Will ask my pdoc about ECT. Just can't get a handle on this damaged brain, something has to be moved out of it, numb it, remove it. Will have a pain mgmt doc do a procedure on my neck tomorrow, that will provide relief. Can't wait till this week is over, for more time to pass, maybe things will not be so glum. I do a lot of "hoping" but nothing changes.My children do better without me, when I leave, their life will become less stressed. Thanks for the note. I appreciate it.