Hi Sally,

Well here is what happened at the neuro. His first statement was asking if I in the middle of litigation or trying to get disability, stupid me said "yes, but that's not the reason i am here. That i am worried about what is happening to me". I think it was then that he dismissed me as a faker, user, whatever else you want to call it. He would not look at my paper (since I'm having issues remembering I listed my symptoms, when they started, etc); he sneared at George and asked why did I think I need him. The doctor asked for him to be taken out of the room for the exam, so my hubby left with him. If I had been thinking clearly I would have had them wait in the hall with the door open.

He asked me my symptoms and I started listing them. He cut me off and said I was referred to him because of the dizziness. I said I though he would want the whole time line that led up to it and other things that were happening. He said no, just tell me when the dizziness started. I was able to get in the weird sleep stuff and memory & speech issues (though he waved his hand and cut me off). He then did the basic 5 min neuro tests (i had tremors in my hands, eyes jumped during the light test and i kept rocking back when i stood w/my knees together i rocked back). He said that if he didn't know my symptoms that i listed, that i was perfectly fine, nothing wrong in my neuro test. He said my symptoms (the ones he allowed me to say) do not match any neurological disease that he knows about and he doesn't think i have a neurological problem, but that it's all psych. Basically that I am a big faker, that I'm making it up to get the $$ from SSI and to be able to take my "pet" with me.

He is ordering an MRI, dizzy clinic and the cognitive testing. Basically he dismissed me from the start and is only doing tests (i think) to cover his ***. With the VA this should take about 6 months.. I'm ******, like i never want to be self sufficient, that I WANT to give up all my hobbies, be forced to sell my horse because I can't safely work her, never be able to ride again or to feel safe driving, etc