my deepest condolences to you Jane
I lost 2 babies before they were born and I know how deeply that impacted me, so my heart truly goes out to you after what you suffered.
I hope you have someone close apart from your husband who can be a support and help to you with the other children and around the home at this time. You need to be able to grieve and recover, and I am sure your husband does too.
my prayers are lifted for you