Thanks, Mari, for keeping in touch. My dr visits were helpful, and my actual driving trip went well, I slept through most of it. Being back "home" always brings a strong uproar in my brain; I'm deep in battle within every time. It has its outward manifestations, which are difficult to control. Being back is sooo good - sigh!

CBT doesn't work for me when I'm hit with the emotional storm, I am not lucid therefore unable. I can only review how CBT would have helped, or DBT or RET. No wise mind for me! Forgiveness may be good for the soul, but it doesn't mend it. If only I could get it from those that matter, especially myself. Time, again, to recoup is my saving grace, that and drugs! Ick... You are so kind, Becky