Originally Posted by Bossle

I can appreciate this post! I am normally a very tolerant and forgiving person. I have had CRPS/RSD for 7 months, diagnosed, but think I have really had it for about 3 years after 2 major heart attacks and open heart surgery.
I have noticed that my tolerance for others and my family has been reduced to say the least. Sometimes I just want to yell at everyone for just talking.
I used to be "the life of the party" always joking and laughing. I used to go out of my way to avoid confrontation and stay neutral when it came to dabates. Now, I have actually had a friend tell me they were purposly avoiding me because the conversations are so depressing and difficult to get through. I appreciated the honesty, but boy did it hurt to hear. I realized as she told me this, that for the past year my family and I have not been getting invited to get togethers and events like we used to.
I have always cherished the fact that I had a ton of friends and that I was a social butterfly.

I don't want to be like that, and I try to remain positive as much as I can. However, I catch myself complaining of the pain multiple times a day. I also find myself being paranoid that no one believes that I really have something wrong. It's a horrible thing to go through.

I hope you were able to reconcile with your friend because having friends is one of the most important things in life. Everyone tells me if they are really a good friend they will hang tough with me. But, I think everyone has a point though where they don't want to be around someone. Im a marriage it would be called a Divorce. Regrettably, in a friendship if feels more like abandonment. I have to remind myself constantly it is not the world against me. It's mainly me against me right now. That is why this site is so great. It helps me see that I am not alone in this process and others are dealing with the same exact problems I am, and many times, they are much worse shape than me. I just havent learned how to cope with this yet. I hope I learn soon.

I wish you the best.