Many thanks everyone. It's great to almost feel normal (whatever normal is!!) knowing that other people are going through or have been through a similar state of mind. I think for me, I have never really come to terms with the original diagnosis - maybe I'm in denial or just afraid. My counsellor is really helping with that. I just keeping trying to tell myself every day that I am one of the lucky ones - another day and no major weirdness going on. The only major change in my life since the diagnosis is that I had to give up playing hockey - not a huge deal in the whole scheme of things but, as the counsellor pointed out, it was MS not me that made the decision to quit, not me. I think I am slowly (very slowly) coming to terms with things - I just want to thank everyone again for the supportive messages.