I understand, Friend2U. I wasn't employed as long as you were but I was at the same place for over 16 years. They
were my 2nd family. I actually saw them more than my own family!
I get down about it too, sometimes, so you're definitely not alone.
I'm so glad we can come here and talk about these feelings and not be told to "buck up". It's okay to miss the way things were.