thanks for the healing vibes. i am really doing a number on myself. this morning i was accusing myself of being jealous of a friend who dog sits because she has all these cute dogs she takes care of. I had to examine it more closely to realize i really wasn't jealous of her because sitting for a dog is so far different from experiencing the bond between you and your dog...that is what i miss. at least i can't attack myself for being jealous of all the people who appreciate that bond they have.
i started talking to my friend again. i couldn't stand the loneliness. last night another friend called and she gave me a lecture on faith etc.....
i read some scarey religious stuff this morning...I have to remember God is merciful.
bobby