it isn't a phobia or anything. i just like the night. i have rolled over into night-owl hours again, and as usual it is really hard for me to roll back (or forward) ... because i *LIKE* being up at night. it's all peaceful and quiet and stuff.

problem is, then, in the day, it's all noisy (arghhh!) so my sleep quality is compromised.

also problematic when i think in terms of going back to work. sigh. ridiculous really.

it is 3.40 am right now. i'm not sleepy, but i'm probably relaxed enough i *COULD* sleep, if i just turned of the lights and tucked in. i am going to try to force myself. i have been putting it off since 2am, half hour by half hour! same thing last night even though i was a MESS with the headache (using different med tonight).the night before i was sick so doesn't count. but the nights before that... same deal... sigh.

mostly i just keep playing stupid games on the computer. not even really enjoying it. but if i work on my project i would probably have a hard time putting it down before 6 am and even if i did, i might then be too alert to sleep.

ok well here goes nothing.
i WILLLLLL shut down the computer.
i WILLLLLL turn of the lights.
i WILLLLLL SLEEP! NOW! before the birds start going and dawn breaks, sigh.

morning has broken... like the first morning... blackbird has spoken... like the first bird...

~ waves ~