Finz, yes I have asked to be forgiven and have forgiven myself, thank you so much you have a kind heart.

I only shared, because this illness changed who I was. I am not a mean little person, heck I was the Kool-aid mom. Just because one is in pain is no reason to behave so irrational, and I knew that, I just lost control. I and my family had to find some coping skills and we worked together to accomplish that. That was many years ago, now my daughters will throw a joke out about it and they will laugh, and that is okay laughter is good for the heart. We need our family, especially our spouse to at least hear us. I searched the internet, on chronic pain and family, and found some wonderful articles and printed them out and still do at times, so we can all stay on the same page.

God Bless All,

Jeanie