Hi! I am so sorry for your difficulties. You are right, only you know what is going on inside your body and how you feel. Sometimes I am just over-whelmed by the way my family treats me and thinks about things. I get very weary of all of the things that they think I should do. I also found out later, when me and my kids were going through an unrelated terrible time, that it would have actually helped them if I had fallen apart, because they said that was actually something they would have understood and been able to help me with. My kids were teens at that time, I do not know how old yours are. My prayers are with you that you may find a compassionate doctor and be able to find comfort and peace. You are never alone. peace to you. Lisa