I'm gettting ready to call it an early night tonight. I can not get anyone by phone to talk to tonight. I watched a little T.V. for as long as I could stand it with my eyes not focusing. I feel really deserted by a lot of people that I know. That hurts a great deal to know that people can be so cold to anohter human being. I hate my brothers who have always told me I need to be indedepent. All that boils down to is they don't want to ever be there for me. If they saw me this down in the dumps they'd try to have me put in the hospital so they would not have to deal. It's just as well they are not in my life.

barbara