i am sorry it will be such a long time healing. i had no idea. that is an ordeal.

your brothers don't seem to have the concept of independent down too well. being independent doesn't mean never needing anybody. i'm sorry you don't have some family that you can get on with. time back, i think you mentioned a half-sister that you talked to sometimes... are you still in touch with her? i think you could use some companionship plain and simple, even if you aren't very close.

~ waves ~