Thank you Waves for understanding. I suppose it would be a good idea for us to post that we are not looking for any suggestions from the get go. I just want some hugs and sympathy I suppose.

I walked back up to the local bar again today and was able to have a pleasant conversation with another person in there. That made me feel so much better like I'm not so isolated. I feel like a complete different person now after having some human contact wiwth a person to talk to. My head feels clearer. The bug man came to spray before that and spoke with me which really lifted my spirits. He asked me if I worked from home! Imagine that all the business I have to contact makes my home look like I am taking care of a working home business.