Hi Bobber,
I am sending my love, thoughts and prayers for you and your family...I am in hopes that you get the Ketamine Infusions that you deserve. Remember God doesn't give you any more than you can handle. I know sometimes it is hard to understand, especially when you are suffering. I would say to keep your faith, but I know that you have one of the strongest faiths that I have ever witnessed.
Much love to you my friend.
Sandy