glad that the big boss gave you a clear course of action and that you can stay home and sleep today. i am so sorry to hear about losing your two colleagues that would be frightening and depressing - i agree with Di, very unhealthy work environment.

regarding the Klonopin, i really hope that it helps and that you will feel more settled soon.

i would feel a little better if you would let your pdoc know what is going on, and what you are doing. for the long term he might even be able to provide an alternative to the K. i realize that, for the moment, you need to use tools you have - you are the best judge on the what and how much. i also realize you might not want to 'fess up to pdoc and that benzo scripts are strictly monitored which complicates things further. but it seemed like your pdoc was pretty receptive when you went through the hassle with the Xanax, so maybe it wouldn't be a problem. he is on your side.

~ waves ~