I can very much relate to this. I live alone, don't work due to the RSD, and have very little people near. I really need to force myself on better days to do more socially or a hobby. It is hard to know what the day will bring pain wise and that is the hard part of a scheduled something. I guess for me I am trying to identify some barriers and ways to work around that. So maybe if you can indentify some too it can help you find ways to find something you enjoy. I can really relate to the loss of people and i am sorry you have faced that too. It makes it hard to trust people. Anyhow keep us updated