see, that is exactly why i didn't want to post that. i am afraid to sound judgmental. stuff that happened makes me angry but if i say it, it sounds judgmental. i mean, after all, they're the family and they lost someone, and i didn't lose anyone right? so who do i think i am, to be angry about this stuff anyway, or say something is stupid or not, right? yeah i'm sure it sounds pretty bad.

well you know i've always believed and, however i may come off to you, i do still believe even in this case, that there is really no telling whether anything could have made any difference. maybe something could have, maybe nothing would have. all the same, a lot of really dumb stuff went down. and it makes me mad. like for instance:

LETS PUT SOMEONE WHO IS EXPRESSLY SUICIDAL ON FREAKIN SEDATIVES!!!!

i best not say any more or i will get people here upset i suppose.

thank you for the booklet offer i will think about it. how long is it btw? (i would need to translate it)