Dear KS, my friend and buddy;

Relax tape a few deeps breaths. I am very proud of you for fighting this, you have lost the battle but not the war. Allow yourself to feel what you feel, then get down sista!!! I do know where one door shuts......we stand there and bang on it, we get angry, cry, pry, and then we find ourselves on the floor crying and looking down the corridor to the door that is open! Your friend Finz has given you some very good suggestions to sneak in through another avenue! Follow your gut, it is in our weakness that we find strength. Man can tear you to shreads, but God knows what you need. Trust in that, and know that our prayers are with you. I truly beleive they have not heard the last of you, just the fact that they did take the time to ponder over this means they are curious. When your nurse friend calls, have your husband talk to her and tell her you have been locked in your room for days and that he is very concerned! I am feeling better tonight, sit back and enjoy the ride, we have come to a fork in the water and I am going to take the other one. Hang in there girl, you deserve this, beleive it.

A big hug from your little buddy

Jeanie