I wanted to bump this up and also say I am sorry you of all people have to deal with what you are I call those times.. shaping time as it shapes ones overall personality and wholeness as a person. May God give you courage calmness, strength , wisdom ,good health, prosperity , most of all a bright light at the end of the tunnel ... a happy ending be waiting for you curious.
you are going to be in many many of my prayers , I am sure others will be doing the same. you have tons in your corner pulling for you... anything you need or want even just vent well feel free we are all here for you.